Are you able to accept and respect yourself even though you are having the feelings that you are having? If the answer is no and you are judging yourself negatively for having a feeling, it is a sure way to stop it from flowing. What do you think is wrong with being a person who has such feelings? How exactly are you judging yourself? Would you judge someone else in the same way if they were going through the same thing? If you can’t convince yourself that those feelings are an understandable and acceptable response to what you are going through, then maybe you need to share this with someone. Perhaps they can convince you by showing you how much they accept and respect you even with the knowledge that you are feeling those things. Take the risk of talking to someone, be it a friend, family member or a counsellor.